Makay’s p.o.v. I have been back for three months and I have had much time to think about my future, about what I am going to do with my fated Mate. Would it be fair if I accepted her for Myka’s sake? Am I willing to lose everything by rejecting her? Blade is silent most of the time, he doesn’t even answer me when I ask him how he feels about this and Myka does everything he can to avoid me. He doesn’t join us at the table for a meal; he is gone before I wake up, and sometimes I wonder if he returns to the Beta floor at all. Mom got so fed up with it that she went back to Black Valley Pack a week ago and Dad has been grumpy ever since. A slamming door alerts me and I walk out of my bedroom to see Dad in a state of panic. “Black Valley got attacked, I am going over there and I need you and Myka to help out Alpha Lincoln.” Dad says as he grabs some clothes and shoves them into a bag. He runs out the door before I can respond and from the corner of my eye I see Myka walking back into his room, ignoring me again. “Alpha Lincoln, if you need me I will be on the Beta floor.” I say through the mind-link, but I don’t wait for a response. I walk to Myka’s room to hear the water running, so I wait for him to finish in the bathroom. “What do you want, Makay?” Myka asks as he walks out of the bathroom and for a moment I am not sure what to tell him. I can’t tell him without explaining my reasons and I don’t want to relive that memory, never again. I still have nightmares from that day, they have gotten less with the years and they are easier to deal with, but I am not ready to talk about it with anyone. “Just wanted to know if you heard everything Dad said.” I mumble, but Myka knows that it is just an excuse. I will take whatever I can get to connect with my Brother and I hope that one day he will respond the way he used to. “I did, I was with Dad when the call came in.” Is all the answer I get from him and that is when I look at the time. Damn, I slept through training omce again. Morning training is mandatory for all the High-ranked Pack-members; this is the fourth time I have missed it in three months. Dad returns just before dinner time and I find out that Meadow paid Black Valley Pack a visit with her team. She did find a small new lead in her investigation, but it wasn’t something that cracked the case wide open. “Her visit showed me that you had to deal with a very capable team leader, Makay. No wonder she figured out what your problem was and she even found out why today.” Dad states as we walk into the Alpha office after dinner.Everyone looks from Dad to me and I can tell that Myka wants to know why, just like the rest. “Your problem isn’t a female fighting, your problem is the fear of losing your Mate to death. I should have known that this was the reason behind your behavior, but it didn’t seem to bother you and the change in your point of view showed up years later.” Dad says and I know he will tell everyone the truth. “Do you think that I wasn’t scared every time that your Mother was pregnant? It scared the shit out of me, but I also knew that I couldn’t stop her from being her. All you can do is talk to your Mate about your fears, just like I did.” Dad says, not taking his eyes off me and I know that he is being truthful. “Lincoln told me the same when I was pregnant with Madden and I smacked him on the back of his head, asking if he had lost his mind.” Luna Leona says. I chuckle because I know that she did just that, she might be petite in every way you look at her, but don’t you dare piss her off. Even Dad steps back when she is pissed and he is a Grizzly for fuck’s sake. “You are not the only one that worries, Makay. Your Mate will worry every time you go out there, because who will be there for her if something happens to you and Myka. Who will help her raise your Pups?” Luna Leona asks. I had never thought about it from that point of view, but that is because I thought we would all be dead. “He didn’t die because his Mate died, the stress of her death triggered a heart defect he was born with. There was nothing anyone could have done. Doc believes that he would have died from the stress of losing their Pup or from her injuries, any kind of stress would have killed him.” Dad states. “You will share a Mate with your Brother and the two of you have to talk to your Mate about your fears, you have to talk to your Brother about your fears and vice versa. None of you have to do this alone, we are still here to help whenever you need us.” Mom says as she wraps her arms around me. I don’t want to think about everything that I fear, but it might be the only path I can travel. I might not be the only one with these fears and without talking about it, I will never know where my Brother stands or if he feels the same fears that I do. “I think it is time that you and I talked about our future, instead of trying to bury it under the rug. I didn’t want to have this conversation out of fear, fear that you might make me see things your way and it wasn’t a risk I wanted to take.” Myka says as he places a hand on my shoulder. At least this revelation brought one good thing, my Brother is talking to me again and maybe we can start mending the broken pieces of our relationship.