Alpha Nicholas "I don't understand. Why would he do this? What could he possibly get out of hiding a pregnancy? I mean it's not like he's going to be able to hide it forever so I don't understand what he's trying to do." It has been ten minutes since I told Bonnie everything that I have found out this evening and she's had constant questions and word vomit since which is completely understandable. I answer what I can but the truth is that I don't know a great deal and I'm unable to answer as many questions as I would like to but I do what I can. "I wish I could tell you more, sweetheart. I wish I had the answers to all of those questions, trust me I do but I don't however, we will get all the answers that we need, that I promise you." My words are said with confidence because that is exactly what I plan to do. I won't stop nor will the doc die until I know every single fucking detail of his plan and why he's doing this. We spend a while talking but too soon Bonnie's words turn to tears and it kills me to see. I would give anything, anything to never have to see her cry but right now, I can't and I feel fucking helpless. I need to get my brothers and trusted men together so that I can inform them of everything and get a plan together, maybe even include my dad in this but first, I need to look after my mate. No matter how much I want to head straight for the doctor right now and just end him, the Alpha in me knows that I need to do this right and above all else I need to put my mate first which includes making sure that the doctor is secured and not able to plan anything else. "Robbie, grab a few warriors and get the doc in the cells. Not a word of what's happened to anyone until I say so. You just tell the guards that it's my order." "Consider it done, brother. How's Bonnie? Have you spoken to her yet?" "Yes I have and she is how you would expect but she'll be ok." "Of course, she will. She has you and the rest of our family." I close the link without saying anymore but I don't need to Robbie already knows how much I always appreciate his support to me and my mate. I turn my attention back to my mate as I hold her in my lap as her tears start to dry up and once she's finally calmed down I scoop her up and carry her back to our bedroom. She doesn't say a word the whole way back. Her mood has gone from word vomit to complete silence so quickly that it's got me seriously worried and I need to try and snap her out of it. I can feel the tension in her body, can feel her sadness through our emotions and it both kills me and makes me even more angry all at the same time but I keep my anger hidden away deep inside of me ready for when I'm face to face with the doc. Instead of stopping in the bedroom like I had originally planned I walk through it and straight into the bathroom and sit my mate on the vanity unit before turning away from her and making quick work of making a start on running a bath for her. Once I have the water at the right temperature and have added in some of her favourite bath salts I walk back over to her hock my finger under her chin and lift her head until her face is level with mine. She still hasn't said a word and I'm seriously starting to worry about her."Baby, would you like me to call Harriet to come and check you over?" This seems to grab her attention as her eyes go wide before a look of confusion covers her beautiful face. "Harriet... but why?" I gently stroke her cheek with my thumb taking in a deep breath as I let the sparks from our bond keep me calm. "You haven't said a word in over thirty minutes. I know it's a lot to take in but I'm worried that you may be in shock, baby." She gives me the briefest of smiles before turning her head to the side and placing a gentle kiss on my thumb. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you worry. I guess I've just been processing everything that you've said. Whenever bad things have happened in the past I've not had anyone there for me aside from Lily of course but in my house, I was on my own so I guess that I'm still used to dealing with bad things happening on my own and that why I kind of shut down. I didn't mean to." I feel her body tense up and I'm not sure if it's from what happened or fear but my senses and Storm are both saying that it's coming from a place of fear and I'm not having it. My thumb falls away from her face as she looks down at her lap as she anxiously plays with her hands. "Hey, hey, look at me, sweetheart." She doesn't move so I try again only again nothing happens so instead, I hook my finger back under her chin and once again lift her face so she has no choice but to look at me. "Talk to me. What's going on in that pretty head of yours right now." She remains quiet which only spikes my senses even more. She's scared. "Bonnie, baby. Why are you scared?" If this was any other situation the look of shock on her face from my words would be funny but right now it's anything but. "How do... how?" "Our bond, sweetheart." She lets out a small laugh as she rolls her eyes. "I always forget about that part of the bond." I move my hands and begin running them slowly up and down her arms. It's something that I've come to learn that helps calm her down when she's feeling overwhelmed and right now is most definitely one of those moments. I feel relief as I feel her start to calm down but I need to know more. "Why were you feeling scared just now?" She keeps eye contact with me but doesn't say a word. "Baby, I want to know why you were scared. I need to know. I can't help you if I don't know and I want to help you, I do."She takes a deep breath as she slowly nods her head. "I... I just had a moment I guess. One of those moments where I get dragged back into the past and I got scared... I got scared that you would be angry because I blocked you out and wasn't talking. I'm sorry, I am. I didn't mean to do that." The more she talks the more I feel her panic and that is the last thing that I want. "Shh baby, it's ok. I want you to listen to me. I won't ever be mad at you for dealing with problems like you do. It's something that is ingrained in you and that is not your fault. It's all you know and that's ok." "And while I hope that one day you will be able to deal with it differently and not get dragged into your past if you can't and that's how you always deal with things then that's ok. I'll never be mad, baby, never." "I want to change it, I do. I hate that I still get dragged back there, to that house, to that room but sometimes I just can't stop it." I can see the anguish on her face and I hate it. "Then I will help you. Together we will try and find other ways for you to deal with things ok, baby." She nods seeming relieved and I'm just thankful that I'm able to help her calm back down. "Was that the only reason that you were scared?" I have a feeling that it wasn't but I don't want to say anything in case I'm wrong or in case she thinks I'm mad about it. She hesitates for what feels like forever before finally answering me. "No... no it wasn't. I... goddess I was worried that you were mad at me for not talking to you. I just...." Tears start to form in her eyes and I know exactly what she is thinking without her saying a word. She was worried that I would hurt her and as much as that makes me mad, I get it, I do. It's all she knew and despite the fact that I haven't laid a hand on her since she got here, I'm not surprised that the fact that I won't ever hurt her still hasn't quite sunk in for her yet. "Baby, you don't need to say anymore but I want you to listen to me." She looks straight into my eyes and I'm glad because I want her to know that I mean every word. "No matter what happens in life, no matter what situation we find ourselves in or whether it be that either you or I at mad at someone or even each other I promise you with all I have that I will never lay a hand on you in any way. No matter how angry I am whether that be at you or someone else I will never physically take my anger out on you."I watch her reaction to my words and I'm fairly happy. I can feel her body slowly relaxing and I can sense that she isn't so panicky. "logically I know that you won't. But in my head.... in my head, it's taking a little longer to sink in. I'm sorry, Nick." I lean forward and place a kiss on her forehead. "No apologies needed, sweetheart. Well get there, I promise." She nods her head right before I lean in and kiss her with all I have as the sudden need for her washes over me and consumes me. I spend the next several minutes showing my mate exactly how much I love her before we both take a bath and I get us dried and into bed. Of course, I have no plans to sleep, not anytime soon anyway. Robbie linked me while we were in the bath to inform me that the doc is now secured in a cell so once my mate is sleeping I'll be heading to the cells to have a little chat with our good old doc and put a stop to his shit once and for all.