Bonnie Nick stayed true to his word, and neither of us got much sleep last night. We were awake until almost 3 am, and even after that, Nick woke me up twice and made love to me before we passed back out. And if that wasn't enough, he then woke me up at 7 am with his head between my legs. I swear that man would live between my legs if he could, not that you'll ever hear me complaining. First thing this morning, after we had both showered and dressed, Nick was on the phone with the doctor and had an appointment arranged right away. Of course, this is in no way a coincidence. Being the Alpha and future Luna of this pack is without a doubt, the only reason that we got an appointment so soon, but I'm grateful for that. Everyone knows that pregnancy tests can be false, and as much as I've had physical signs of pregnancy, I still need physical proof that it's real, because until I do, I keep worrying that there's been a mistake, and the thought of that makes me want to cry. What if it is wrong? What if I'm not pregnant?"Are you ready, darling?" Nick's voice brings me out of my head as I'm sitting at my dressing table brushing my hair. He comes to stand behind me and rests his hands on my shoulders. "Yep, I'm ready." I force the best smile that I can manage, but of course, with Nick being my mate, it's almost impossible to fool him and not just because he can feel my emotions, nope, he already knows me too well and knows when I'm lying just by looking at me and let me tell you it's fricking annoying! "What's wrong, darling?" He gently massages my shoulders as his eyes meet mine in the vanity mirror that's on my dressing table. "Nothing. I'm fine. We'd better get going." I stand up and go to walk around him, but before I can get past him, he snakes his arm around my waist and pulls me into him. "Not so fast, sweetheart." He pulls me tight against his chest and looks down at me with nothing but worry. "Talk to me." "I'm just being silly. Honestly, it's fine. We had better go before we're late for the doc." He gives me that look that tells me that he knows that I'm bullshitting, and I almost want to cry at how much he knows me, of how he always knows when I'm trying to lie... almost... except underneath my frustration I can't deny how much I love it, all of it. "Whatever it is, is worrying you, and there's nothing silly about that? The doctor will wait all day for us if he needs to, so spill before I find another way of persuading you to talk and believe me when I tell you that if we're going that route, the doc will be lucky if we make it to him before the end of the day never mind the end of our appointment!" His words send a shiver racing through my body, and as much as I like the idea of him persuading me, my need to confirm this pregnancy is greater right now. "I'm just scared." Instantly, he looks worried, but he quickly does his best to try and mask it. Unfortunately for him, I know him just as well as he knows me, and I don't miss the look. "What if the test is wrong? What if it was a false positive? What if... what if there's no pup after all? What if, after all that's happened with Lottie, we find out that we're not even pregnant?" By the time I finish talking, I'm out of breath, slightly shaking, and I'm pretty sure that I'm blue in the face from lack of breath. "OK, ok. So, firstly, I need you to calm down, sweetheart." I take several deep breaths as he runs his hands up and down my arms while placing a gentle kiss on my forehead. "Now, while there is a chance that it was a false positive, if we both think about it, you have been showing some pregnancy signs for at least a few days now." He's right, I have been showing signs so between all those signs and the positive pregnancy test there's no way it can be wrong, right? Within fifteen minutes of my mental breakdown, we arrived at the hospital and were shown to a private room where both the doctor and a nurse were waiting for us. As Nick helped me onto the bed, I felt my heart beat so fast that I'm surprised it didn't break free from my chest. "Ok, Luna. What can we help you with today?" It doesn't matter how many times I tell the doctor not to call me Luna, not until I am officially the Luna, he doesn't listen. He says it's disrespectful, and I can respect that. He's old school, and now I just let him call me Luna. I look at Nick as my throat feels like it's closing up. Why am I struggling so much? He takes my hand in his and gently runs his thumb over the back of my hand, all while giving me an encouraging smile before facing the doctor. "We believe that the Luna is pregnant. Over this past week, she has been more tired than usual. Her eating is all over the place, and she has been sick several times, mostly in the morning. And she has also had a positive pregnancy test but, of course, we still need to confirm it." I can feel the excitement running through his body, and it somewhat helps to calm me. "Of course, Alpha. How about we do that right now?" The doc turns his attention back to me as he stops his overly large glasses from sliding down his nose. "Luna, do you have a rough idea of how far along you could be?" I shake my head as my mind goes blank. "That's no problem. Do you remember the date of your last period?" Again I shake my head as my mind remains blank. "I'm sorry, things have been... pretty intense lately, and I've lost track of my cycle." He gives me an understanding look as he smiles. "That's no problem. How about we perform a scan? We can get the information that we need from there." "Yes, please, doc." I stretch out on the uncomfortable hospital bed and raise my top ready to have this pregnancy confirmed and wince when the cold gel is spread across my stomach while Nick lets out a growl at the doctor's seeing and touching my stomach. Goddess, this gel is cold! "Ignore him, doc." He lets out a small laugh as he puts his attention on to the screen that is currently displaying the inside of my stomach. "Don't you worry yourself, Luna. When you're a doctor for a werewolf pack, you quickly get used to their possessive ways." I go to reply but the look on his face as he concentrates on the machine in front of him stops me, and I'm not the only one who notices it as I feel Nick's body tense up. "Is everything OK, doc?" Doc looks between us and back to the screen several times while he continues to scan my stomach. After what feels like forever, but in reality is only a few minutes, he lets out an awkward cough before turning his attention back to us. Alpha, Luna... I'm... I'm afraid that I can't find a heartbeat. I can't find a baby. "I'm afraid you're not pregnant, Luna Bonnie." As I listen to his words, it feels like the wind has been knocked right out of me. I'm not pregnant. I'm not pregnant. I'M NOT PREGNANT!I scream so loudly inside my head that my head quickly becomes painful. "Are you sure?" Yeah, that is probably the dumbest question that I could ask right now, but still, my mouth opens, and the words come out even when I know that he is already sure. "Yes, unfortunately I am sure, Luna." "But the positive pregnancy test... the symptoms?" Nick asks looking as lost as I feel right now. "As I'm sure you are already aware, pregnancy tests can produce false positives. It happens more than you'd realize. As for those systems, they can also be a sign of stress and I don't want to speak out of turn here, but from the recent activities that I've been made aware of going on within this pack... Well, I wouldn't be at least a bit surprised if it was stress causing those symptoms. He gives us a gentle smile and nods before heading towards the door. "Nurse, Sally, here will help you get cleaned up. I will give you a moment. Please take your time. If you need me, I will be in my office." After we both thank him, he leaves while Nurse Sally gets straight to work wiping the gel off my belly and moving the machine away from me before she bows her head in respect and walks out of the door, leaving me and my mate all alone. I take deep breaths as Nick helps me sit back up, but for a few moments, we remain quiet, lost in our thoughts and feelings. Don't get me wrong, at first the silence is just what I need, but it slowly begins to feel suffocating, like all the air is being sucked out of the room. This is my fault. This is all my fault. "I'm sorry, Nick." His head shoots up as he moves to come and stand in front of me, stepping in between my legs. "Why are you sorry?" He asks as he begins to run his hands up and down my arms. "Because I should have checked first before telling anyone. I should have made sure." "Ok, one, you didn't actually tell anyone. That is down to my mom and two. If I didn't know then I would have missed out on the scan and while it has been disappointing to not see a baby on the screen, if there had been, I would have missed that... yeah, that I wouldn't be happy about. I would rather be here right now even with what happened than miss the chance of seeing our baby for the first time, OK?" His words are straight to the point and just looking at his face I can see that he means every word that he says. "OK?" He asks once more. I give him my best smile and nod all the while still feeling disappointed inside. He leans down and places a gentle kiss on my lips before pulling back and suddenly getting a sexy ass smirk on his face. "Now, how about we head back home and get started on creating a pup? This one may have been a surprise, but I still wouldn't mind having a pup running around the place again, so what do you say?" I don't think about it, I don't need to. Instead, I jump down from the table and throw on my jacket. "Sounds perfect, my Alpha." We can sit around and be sad for the baby who was never real, or we can get started on creating one that is real, and have a hell of a lot of fun along the way. Yeah... I know which option I'm picking.