~ Kade's pov ~ I paced in front of the room, raking a hand through my hair so many times that my scalp had begun to throb from the assault. "Calm down you're making me even more nervous." Colby voiced out, looking like he was about to throw up. I groan, tugging at the roots of my hair and turn to him. "Did you know?" I managed to wrench out of my throbbing throat. God, I was holding back tears and it only caused my body to feel like I was about to die. Every breath I took feel painful. Colby's brows pinch as he looks up at me from his seat. "Knew about what?" "Dammit Colby the least you could do is stop pretending that you don't know what I'm talking about!" I sneered. It was wrong of me to pass the frustration of the situation on him. But I couldn't help it. I needed to let it out. If I didn't I would suffocate. Colby winces and mumbles. " I only found out today. I was the one who made her take the test today and it came back negative. You must know she was going to tell you." I sighed and raked a hand through my hair again. She should've told me the moment she thought she was. God, she really should have. I groan and went to sit down beside him, pushing my elbows on my knees and pushing my hands to my face. "Fuck."I cursed. I felt wetness on my palm and knew I was crying. "We were being safe- we were." I croaked out. Just like my mother said, I would ruin lives just like she had done. I was truly dirty, perhaps cursed by the sins of my mother's past. "Kade!" I lift my head and my eyes connected with blurry gazes, those that belonged to Mia's parents. My chest tightens and I rise to my feet, crying without caring that there were doctors and nurses walking up and down the corridor. I shook my head, feeling my throat hurt. "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I ruined her." I cried out painfully. " I thought we were being safe. I swear I didn't mean to ruin her." My knees buckled wanting to plaster to the floor to plead for their forgiveness. I didn't even care that I was basically telling Mr. Cross that his daughter and I are in a relationship. I had already mentioned I was Mia's boyfriend to the doctors and the nurses tending to her. It would be no use now in lying about it in front of her parents. Her parents whom I now feel pity for. Pity that they entered the son of a woman that nearly ruined their lives, only for that son to do the exact same. I was just like her. Exactly like her. We were the same. The blood that runs through her veins runs through mine. She was right, I was dirty. But before my knees could kiss the floor, Mrs. Cross rushed forward and pulled me into her warm embrace. "It's okay. It's okay." She repeated in a whisper over and over in my ears and didn't stop even when her husband embraced us both in his arms. I didn't deserve their kindness or their reassurance. Nothing would be the same from now on. Everything has changed. Our entire lives have changed. Nothing was okay. The sound of a door opening had us pulling apart. My heart falls into my stomach when I see it was the doctor, she looked like she was in a rush but Mrs. Cross managed to get in her way. "Doctor my daughter? Is she okay? Is she? Can I see her?" Mrs. Crossed rushed out. Her voice had steeling urgency that the female doctor detected quickly. Mr. Cross wrapped his arm around his wife and gently pulled her away from the doctor's personal space. " She's okay Mrs. Cross but you can't go in yet until I get back with the test results. The nurses are currently cleaning her up." The doctor places a reassuring hand on Mrs. Cross's arm and looked at both Mr. Cross and Mrs. Cross. "There's no need to worry. I will be back as quickly as I can." She nods, lets go, and starts walking away quickly. A nurse opens the door after a few seconds, and in her hand is a tray full of small medical tubes. I quickly notice blood was filled in one and my heart wrenches painfully. My poor baby. This was all my fault. ♡ Mia's pov ♡ I wasn't sure how long I had been in Kade's arms until the ambulance actually arrived. Or how he was able to run with me in his arms outside. He hadn't even waited for them to come inside the school. Honestly, everything was like a blur until we got to the hospital. ____ "Mia?" Doctor. Joseph murmured behind me. I hear the sound of the door closing softly. The other two nurses I suppose left the room to perhaps give the doctor and me some space. I guess this was the part where the doctor tells me what was wrong with me. A new wave of fresh tears soaked the flat pillow under my head and I sniffled. I hated the hospital and I hated the gown I was forced to wear. From the white walls, to the scent of rubbing alcohol and disinfectant. I hated everything honestly. And if I had the choice to not come here I would not. But unfortunately, I had to. I turned around to face her, the doctor that had been the one to check me. I didn't want to be rude by ignoring her. Even though I was clearly not in the mood to speak or face anyone right now. She forces her upper lip to flick in a soft smile, one that nearly wavered into a sad one. My eyes blurred and I can already tell she would give me the worst news possible. I didn't want to hear it and if I had the option to, I wouldn't. Sadly even though I'd press my hands to my ear I was a hundred percent sure her voice would still filter in. Covering ears never quite worked anyway. I'd just look ridiculous by doing it. So I licked my dry lips and asked her. "Something is wrong isn't it?"I was at least grateful they had not hooked me up to the heart monitor, because right now my heart was beating impossibly fast as I awaited her answer. She had a clipboard in her hand and she started jotting down on the paper. She sighs and then looks back up at me, and looks reluctant to tell me but manages to let out gently. "I'm sorry to say that you've lost the baby Mia. You've miscarried." As soon as her words reached my ears, I felt a powerful zap of pain in my heart. I struggled to pull in air into my lungs as I stammered out, my eyes blurry and my lips wobbly. "But-but the test came ba-ck negative." Why does it feel like my ears were ringing? I looked at the doctor through my blurry vision and blinked. A wet trail of tears snakes down my cheeks when I do so. Doctor Joseph looks sympathetic as she utters. "Tests aren't always accurate, unfortunately. It could be that you had a very low level of hCG that the test couldn't detect the hormone in your urine." She must've seen my torn expression because she said sadly. "We run some tests and all the signs point to a miscarriage. I'm so sorry to give you such sad news Mia. Fortunately, we saw no more issues and you'll be discharged soon- She suddenly stops, her tone swimming with heavy sympathy. "Your parents are outside along with your boyfriend and friend. Do you want me to get them?" I couldn't answer, I couldn't speak and to think of even just saying yes or no seemed like it was too much work. I could only sob as my eyes filled with more tears, the sobs shaking my entire body. They were painful and made my chest feel heavier. I turned around giving her my back, not as an insult but because I couldn't bear the thought of a stranger seeing me in my most vulnerable state even though she was my doctor. I wanted to scream until my lungs would give out. I wanted to make my throat raw. Any other pain would be welcomed. Any other pain other than the one of losing a child would've been most welcomed. Anything else I could handle, but this, this....I didn't think I could. Not when I could barely breathe. "I'll go get them," I could hear Doctor Joseph murmur behind me. I can't speak, it feels like I had lost the will to. My throat felt closed up and as I clench the bedding under me and pressed my face into the pillow, I screamed. I knew if my mouth wasn't pressing to the pillow, my scream wouldn't have been muffled and it would've probably shaken the entire hospital. I screamed until my lungs burned, until my throat felt raw, and until I could no longer hear the muffled scream in my own ears. I may not have been prepared for a baby but now knowing that I had lost a part of my soul was gut wrenching, especially knowing that he or she would've been a part of Kade too. I screamed until I was sure I would lose my voice.