♡ Mia's pov ♡ The door opens to my room and the light coming from my laptop floods the darkened hallway and lights up Kade's figure. He stood there, almost unsure if to enter. But as I fix myself to sit up upon his arrival, he walks in and closes the door behind him. He stared at me quietly, but in the depths of his eyes, I could see the questions racing through his head. He was worried about something. About me. His brows draw together and he takes a step forward. It was stiff and unsure. "Did I do something?" He said tightly with dread. His question completely catches me off guard. "What?" I whispered out in surprise. "Did I do something wrong Mia?" He rakes a hand through his hair and it's then I notice his rigid form. Whatever he was feeling at this moment, was eating inside of him, feeding on his calm emotions. I furrow my brows, lifting myself on my knees as the cover falls off my thighs. I reach over my laptop and pause the movie that was playing on the screen. It's dead silent now except for our breaths. "What are you talking about?" I asked confused, scanning my eyes over him. "You've been acting distant with me the entire day Red. You didn't even come to my room tonight. Usually, you're already tangled in my sheets around this time." He whispers, taking a stiff step forward until his legs hit the edge of my bed. My eyes dart to the small clock on my nightstand. The glowing number read twelve twenty two. He was right. By then I would've been inside his room, tangled in his sheets with him wrapping around me like my safe haven. I understand why he would think something was wrong. For more than two months I'd be in his bed already, missing one night would set the alarm. Especially since I hadn't informed him I wasn't coming tonight. "I haven't been distant with you Kade. You're reading into this too much." I whispered but I knew it was a lie and I knew he knew it was a complete lie.Today, things just were a bit....unsettling. With what was happening to me and knowing that I could throw up in his presence at any time really made me build walls between us. I didn't want him worried or to ask questions. He'd make me take a test and I just wasn't ready for that. I knew I should play it safe and get a pregnancy test to ease up my mind. But the fear of knowing that at any second, my life, our life could change by two red lines, weighed heavy in my gut. God, we haven't even come out to our parents or the entire world yet. We can't be pregnant right now. We just can't. "You barely spoke to me during school hours and when we were driving home, you barely glanced at me. And dinner you were practically a ghost. What's going on Mia? If I did something wrong you'd tell me right?" He asked quietly, sitting down on the bed. I swallowed. I didn't want him to think anything was wrong. I just didn't want to go to him tonight only to leave in the middle of the night to rush to vomit. That would've raised questions. A lot of questions. "You aren't getting bored of me are you?" He tries to lift the corner of his mouth to smile but I heard the heaviness of sadness in his voice. I crawl over to him quickly, shaking my head. "God no. I could never be bored of you Kade." When I am beside him I reach over and grasp his hand in mine. "Don't you ever think I'll be bored of you Kade." "I know we can't really go out on those cheesy dates like most couples. Or hold hands in public. Or kiss you in front of everyone. God, I want to do that so bad Mia. I want to go on those cheesy dates with you. Feed you those grapes while you lay on my lap like those couples in romance movies do. I want to take you on long walks, and hold hands while we talk about our future. I want to do all of that, with you. No one else. " He sighs, his sad gaze dropping to my hand around his own. "I know I can't be that guy for you as yet Mia. And I'm so fucking sorry I was selfish to make you be in a relationship with a guy who can't give you more. I understand if you got bored- I tighten my hold around his hand until I was sure my fingers turned white. "Stop it. Stop saying that. I haven't gotten bored of you Kade. And I'm willing to wait however long it takes until we can tell everyone. I know it's not a good time to let anyone know about us, we're simply not ready for that." And we certainly aren't ready for a pregnancy either. I swallowed harshly. "I want to do those cheesy couple things with you too. But I'm not that desperate for it. The times we get to spend together make up for all the cheesy things we can do. In fact, I prefer it this way. " Sighing heavily when he doesn't look convinced I murmured. "I just haven't felt a hundred percent today. I'm a bit.... I think I might be getting my period soon." I didn't like that I was lying to him, it was clear he felt awful for not being able to parade me around on his arm. I didn't care much about those things anyway, I found our little secret relationship more thrilling. Fewer people to judge it from afar too. "Is that why you've been distant?" He whispered, his eyes telling me he wasn't fully convinced yet. Kade always seems to know when I'm lying or not. Sometimes I think he knew me better than I know myself. And sometimes that made me swoon but right now it was slightly irritating. I nod, my face flaming that I was speaking about my period with my boyfriend. "You know how I get when I'm about to get it." This one wasn't exactly a lie. The first few days before I get my period, I usually feel like shit and slump around everywhere. The only lie here was that my period was due to come next week Thursday if my calendar was right. He raised a brow, his deep blue eyes staring into my own intently. "Isn't it due next week Thursday?" My eyes widen a little in surprise. Kade's mouth lifts into a smile. "I know mostly everything about you Mia." He answers my stunned expression. I sit down on my bum, now feeling shy all of sudden. "It's coming a little earlier I guess," I murmured, staring at my hand around his. I loosen my hold when I realized I still had that deathly grip. "Okay wait here." Kade suddenly says, standing up so swiftly that my hand fell on the bed. My eyes lift up to stare at him in confusion. He turns around and starts for the door. "Where are you going?" I whispered yelled not wanting to be too loud. Yes everyone was asleep but I would still want to be cautious when speaking to Kade around this time. "Just wait here." He said, his hand on the door and twisting it to open. On their own, my eyes fell to his bum hugged by his plaid boxers.I bit my lip. "Eyes off." He chuckled, turning slightly to catch me staring. I rip my gaze from his bottom and looked away. " I wasn't staring." I denied. Kade only chuckles. "Right." He soon leaves and I'm left staring at the door until he comes back. When the door opens again, it's about ten minutes later. Kade enters with a bowl of popcorn, and a couple of chocolate bars mom had hidden from Austin. Suddenly I can't wait to sink my teeth into the chocolate bar. I kneel on the bed, excited as my eyes gobbled at the stuff in his arms. Kade closes the door with his foot and walks over to me. "What's this?" I whispered, not necessarily asking him what was in his arms but why he took them. He smiled and this time it reached his eyes. "I'm going to take care of my girl." He winks, coming over and sitting on the bed, his back resting on the headboard. " How did you get the stash of chocolate my mom likes to hide away from us?" I asked, giggling a little when he scoffs. "It wasn't that hard to find it. Your mom can't hide anything and I'm pretty sure Austin knows where it is." "Now come over and snuggle with me." He nudges his head to the space beside him. I crawl over to him, smiling. "Are you being cheesy right now Kade?" I bit my lip, sitting beside him and gasp when he throws an arm around my waist to pull me closer. Snuggling to his side I breathed in his soothing scent. "No." He denied but as I lift my eyes, I noticed the faint tinge of a blush on his cheeks. I giggled pressing my cheek to his bare shoulders. "I think it's cute," I admitted. " A guy usually doesn't want to hear the word cute baby but I'll let that one slide." He whispered and leaned forward to unpause the movie. "You're watching Jurassic World?" He snorted with amusement.I lift my eyes and narrowed them at his face. "Hey, you may be cute right now but don't think I'll let you slide with an insult to one of the best movies out here," I warned.