♡ Mia's pov ♡ There's a lot that can happen while watching a horror movie, you either scream the house down or you well, scream the house down. There's nothing more you can do. But I was not about to be the laughing stock of my brother or embarrass myself in front of Kade. I wouldn't act like the damsel in distress. Screaming the house down would not be something I'd do today. I press my lips together, hating that I felt the shivers of fear already and the movie hasn't even started as yet. "Uh, I'll be back," I said, getting off the couch and racing upstairs before the boys could respond. I was such a typical girl, getting scared by a mere horror movie. But I can't help it. I hated anything and I mean anything that has to do with horror, anything paranormal or has anything to do with the other world. Count me out the second you say ghost. Taking two steps at once, I make my way to my room and peel the comforter off my bed. I'll need one if I have to hide my trembling hands and feet. By the time I came back downstairs, the movie was on and Kade was now dangerously close to where I sat moments ago. Tightening my hold around the soft comforter, I straighten my spine and strut over to the two. I stop in front of him, gulping as I pinned my gaze on him. He completely ignored me until I cleared my throat. His blue eyes swipe over to me, piercing me so deeply that I involuntarily sucked in some air. He lifts a thick brow, his eyes swimming with amusement. "Can you scoot a little?" I asked, after clearing my throat for the second time. "There's enough space." He says, laughter on the tip of his tongue but he keeps it at bay. Was he trying to make me uncomfortable? One minute he's warm the next he's cold. I don't think I can keep up with the changes of his emotions. I looked at the space he left for me. If I sat there, we would basically be touching. My lower stomach cramps.I look over at Austin who was already absorbed by the movie. "Austin can you scoot over?" But instead of coming to my rescue like any normal brother would do, Austin just rolls his eyes and says a bland no. Kade snorts on the verge of laughing at me. I didn't want him to see that he was winning even though technically this wasn't a competition. But it sure felt like he was trying to get a rise out of me. Or at least make me uncomfortable. So I huffed, played like I didn't care, and plopped between him and Austin. We both gasp simultaneously as my arm brush against his. I don't think he expected it. I keep my gaze to the front, not wanting to look over at him or show him that he was affecting me. Ten minutes into the movie, with the comforter thrown on my legs and my hands twisting underneath, I managed to ask him a question I had been dying to ask the entire morning. My face turns to him. "Did I do something wrong?" I whispered. On their own, my eyes fall to his lips. My own lips tingle as I remember how his felt against mine. "You like that?" He whispered against my mouth as he presses his hard cock against me. My breathing grows as I fight the memory trying to plague my mind. I pinch my fingers together willing them to stay put and not itch to touch him. This was a bad idea to give into his teasing and sit beside him so closely. Now I found it difficult to even think about moving myself away from him. This was dangerous. So dangerous. "No." His voice manages to pull me out of my thoughts and air whooshed out of my lungs. "What?" I said breathlessly, completely confused by his answer, not even remembering what I asked him in the first place. Was he affecting me this much? He turns to me, his blue eyes so beautiful that I wanted to drown in them. Such a clear blue that hid so many true emotions. What had changed him overnight? Or should I say a few hours? "You asked me if you had done anything wrong. The answer is no." He whispers, his eyes flickering down and burning on my lips. "Then why?" I whispered, finding my throat a little dry. I swallowed. "Why what?" He murmurs, his eyes reluctantly removing from my lips to stare into my eyes. "Why were you ignoring me earlier, after we..." I trailed off knowing we had another listening ear beside us. Kade turns away from me completely, his face going hard as he gulps. "I wasn't ignoring you. I'm just trying to survive on my own Mia. I can't do that if I can't stop thinking about-" He stops, letting out a frustrated breath. "Just drop it Mia. It's not worth discussing." He grumbles, his eyes set on the television. Not worth discussing? I bit my bottom lip harshly and turn to stare at the screen. But another ten minutes into the movie and I was embarrassingly flinching every second, gasping every minute and felt like screaming my lungs out every minute. Austin who had been dead set on watching the movie through, fell asleep on the couch, soft snores coming from his mouth. I pulled the comforter closer to me, kicking up my feet on the couch, thankful that Austin was asleep so he'd not argue with me. I brought my knees to my chin and trembled when another scary part came on. To be truthful, every part was scary. "You know, you don't have to continue watching the movie if you don't want to," Kade suddenly murmured, his eyes still set on the screen and unflinching. "And have Austin win? No thank you. I don't want him to have another thing gloating about." I rolled my eyes but nearly screeched when something creepy appeared on the screen. I should've brought the Holy Bible along with a rosary. Surely it would've been enough to ward off anything negative from that movie? "Austin's fast asleep." He snorts. "He won't know if you simply moved the movie. You can always lie and say it was done. He would not know the difference." I turn to Kade, my eyes narrowing on the side of his face as I forced my eyes to actually stay only on his face and not trail down to his tempting mouth. "But I'll know the difference. I don't quit when things get tough Kade, I see them through." He looks at me from the corner of his eye then flicked them back on the screen quickly. "Something tells me you want to say more?" I huffed, turning to face him fully with a glare. "You quit. I didn't take you for someone who quits easily Kade. But I don't even really know you so I guess I shouldn't have painted you into a brave guy in my head. If you want something badly, you fight for it until your last breath. Until your last word. Until you've given it your all. Not just quit and not give a reason- I'm startled when he suddenly turns to me, his darkening gaze burning through me. " You have no idea what you're talking about Mia! Not everyone has the perfect family like you, not everyone can have hope for the future. Or say they'll be the best version of themselves. Not everyone can stare in the mirror and see someone perfect and without flaws!" He seethed lowly so as to not wake up Austin. I flinched by his tone but then they sank in and all I could feel was anger and frustration. "You think I'm perfect? I'm the opposite of perfect Kade! Every single person in this world isn't perfect. All I asked for was an explanation, nothing more. Nothing less." I whispered, blinking away the moisture. He was breathing heavily. " Do you see why now? Do you see why I didn't want to go further? It's because of this Mia, I always end up hurting people. You want an explanation I can't give." He swallowed, his gaze burning through me and lighting up a spark inside my core. " I stayed up the entire time after what happened, fighting with myself. Fighting these feelings I know I shouldn't have. I have been seeking for an explanation too. An explanation on why I can barely breathe when you're near. Why I can barely think when you look at me. Why I can't seem to listen to my head when I say no, I would ruin you." I don't say anything, my chest rising and falling as my gaze set on his lips. "Not being able to resist you makes me a bad guy Mia. Your parents opened their home for me with open arms. You don't know my past Mia, or how I'm....dirty, undeserving of someone like you. I can't ruin you, Mia. I can't dirty you." There's a plea in his voice, yet his head seems to be drawing closer and closer to me until our breath mingled. My heart pounds. My fingers shook. And my eyes, they flickered down to his parted lips. "What if I say, that I want you to ruin me?" I whispered. "That I want you to dirty me. Everywhere possible. I want you to dirty me, Kade." Kade sucks in a sharp breath that travels through me. I shuddered. "Then I would say, that was the worst thing you could ever say to me. Because now......now Mia...I am going to dirty you." His lips met mine but it wasn't soft, it was rough as he pushed his tongue into my mouth, dominating me quickly and showing me how dirty he could be.