Bonnie One month later "How are you doing, sweetie?" I take a seat on the grey suede window seat next to Rosie as she stares out of the window that looks over the South side of our packlands and forest. Over the past month, we have become incredibly close and in that time she has told me a lot about her life and the life of her little boys and my heart breaks for all that she has been through, for all that she is still going through. I always thought that my life was unfair, that I had been cursed in some way but when I think of the things that Rosie has been through hell, my life has been a breeze in comparison. How can one girl suffer so much? I love the moon goddess, I do. She's the mother of our creation but sometimes... sometimes I wonder how she can let such cruel things happen to wolves as sweet as Rosie. She would give anyone her last cent. Would bend over backwards to help any soul on this earth and yet all she's been handed is pain after pain. "It's been one month today, one month today since we started the search for my boys and there has been nothing. No sighting, no trace, not a single bit of hope." The raw pain in her voice guts me. Finally, she turns to face me and part of me wishes that she hadn't because the pain in her eyes is even worse to witness. "Where are they, Bonnie? Where are my babies?" Fuck, I wish I knew. I would go to the ends of the earth to get them if I thought that they were there. I would do anything to find those little boys for her. "I dont know, Rosie but what I do know is that we will find them. It may not be this week or this month but we will never give up on looking for them. EVER!" My words are firm and they are the truth. No one in this pack is going to give up on finding them, no matter how long it takes. "But... but what if we never find them?" And there it is her biggest fear. Tony linked me twenty minutes ago to ask me if I could talk to her. He said that she had been sitting on this seat for over two hours but hadn't said a word and he was hoping that she would talk to me. Don't get me wrong, she has a lot of moments like this understandably but he had a feeling that this time was different and he was right. "We can't think like that, sweetie. We just can't." I don't doubt that everyone in this pack has had this thought already. I know that both Nick and I have spoken about it but I mean what I say, we can't think like that. Those boys are out there somewhere and we will find them. "But they are only babies, Bonnie. What if they are gone so long that they forget who I am? What if they have already forgotten about me?" Tears stream down her face as she bends over leaning on her legs and crumbles. "I can't live without them, Bonnie. I can't!" She's starting to panic and her breathing is so erratic that im worried that she's about to pass out. "I need Tony!" She cries as I fold my arms around her and try to offer her comfort, even if it's only a small amount. "Tony, where are you?" "I'm in Nicks office. What's happened?" He knows im with Rosie and his voice is instantly full of worry. "She wants you. She's breaking down." "Im on my way!" His voice booms in my head before he cuts the link and I know that he's already heading here as fast as he can. He arrives just a couple of minutes later to find Rosie in the same state as she was when I linked him, the only difference now is that I've also joined her in crying. How can I not? This girl means so much to me and is slowly becoming a best friend, she's broken and there's not a goddam thing that I can do about it. Tony storms over and instantly scoops her up in his arms. She wraps her arms around his neck and buries her face in his neck as her body continues to buck as the force of her crying runs through her body. "It's ok, sweetheart. I've got you." He looks at me with sadness pouring out of his eyes as he holds her tight to his body. "Thank you, Bonnie." I give him a nod but I can't speak because I know the moment that I do im going to crumble myself and neither of them needs to see that. I watch as they disappear down the narrow hallway before turning my attention back to the window while trying and failing to stop my tears. How Rosie has handled this as well as she has amazes me. Yes, she's broken down today but as far as I know, this is the first time that she's broken down to this extreme. She has stayed strong this entire time determined to find her babies and im in awe of her. If I were in the same position I can't imagine myself being half as strong as her. We need to find her boys sooner rather than later. Alpha Nicholas It's been one whole month since we started the hunt for Tony and Rosie's boys and there's been fuck all. Not a single sighting, no track to trace, no information, nothing! We have even offered a very generous reward for any information leading to finding them but there's nothing, not a fucking peep. How the hell can two little boys just disappear without a trace? "I need to be back out there but I have a feeling that Rosie needs me here right now." I've had Tony sitting in my office for the last half hour torn between the need to be out there looking for his boys and the need to be here with Rosie. She has been holding herself together so well. Much better than anyone would assume that she would but even then weve all been watching and waiting for the day that she finally breaks and from what Tony has said today is that day. Fuck, this is so hard!" The poor fucker is torn in two right now and I know no matter what I say nothing will help him but still, I try. "We have four teams currently out and another two set to leave within the next hour. You're doing the right thing by staying here and waiting for the moment that Rosie needs you." He nods but the torture on his face is hard to witness. I don't think he'll ever realize just how proud of him I am. He has always been someone that I am proud to have at my side but to see him like this just makes my pride shine even brighter. He hasn't even met those little boys and yet, already there's nothing that he wouldn't do to find them. Before he's even met them it's tearing him up inside just thinking about where they could be or what they are going through and it just shows me how much of an incredible father he is going to be to them once they are back here where they belong. I watch as his eyes glaze over and the moment he tells me what my mate has said over the link im straight to my feet and following him through the pack house. My mate has a hard shell and will be there for anyone but she's got a soft centre and I already know that if Rosie has finally crumbled then she will remain strong for everyone to see but inside she will be devastated and im going to be there for her.The moment I see her I know that I was right. She's ready to break, ready to fall and im ready to catch her. As soon as Tony leaves with Rosie in his arms I make my way over to my mate. She hasn't even noticed I'm here which just shows how lost she is feeling right now and I hate it but im so, so proud of her. She has recently gone through so much pain and grief and yet, here she is pushing all that aside and being there for Rosie whenever she needs it. She's not just there for Rosie, I can tell that she feels her pain and it's sobering how kind she truly is. "You ok, darling." My arms slide around her waist as I pull her back into my body giving her all the comfort I can but it doesn't do much as tears stream down her face. Fuck, it guts me to see her so hurt. "Shh shh, it's ok my darling. I've got you." I turn her around until she's facing me all while keeping a tight hold on her body afraid that her legs are going to give way if I don't. "Where are they, Nick? Where are her babies?" Her words are soft, tears still running down her cheeks. "I wish I knew, baby. If I did we would already be on the way to get them." She nods her head but doesn't speak as she works to slow down her tears. "We won't give in. Not ever!" It's a vow I intend to keep. "I know," She whispers sounding broken. "There you both are!" Lottie's angel voice startles us a little as she comes bounding down the hallway. "I've been looking everywhere for you!" She rolls her eyes like a typical dramatic teenager causing Bonnie to laugh a little. Fuck, I love my little girl for making my mate laugh right now. "What the emergency?" I ask, making sure to act as dramatic as her causing Bonnie to laugh once more. "I need my nails done and I was wondering if my...my... stepmom would like to come with me?" She keeps a big smile plastered on her face but I didn't miss the stutter in her words and neither did Bonnie. The moment that Lottie called her, her step mom I felt her emotions skyrocket but in a good way. Bonnie looks my way seeming confused. Is she asking my permission? I'm instantly angry at her thinking that I have control over her like that but then I take a moment to remember the life that she has lived and it helps to calm my anger... a little. She will learn that I dont control her life. Will I be demanding and controlling when it comes to keeping her safe and healthy? Absolutely, but she will live her life how she wants and make her own decisions unless she asks for different. I go to speak but im stopped by Shane's loud booming voice that instantly gives me a headache. "Nick, we think we may have found the boys!" His words hold me still for a moment until I manage to shake myself out of it. "Get to my office, now!"Chapter 78 Finished