Jaylen Everyone keeps telling me that my Mate will understand once I explain everything to her. I am just the one that keeps having doubts, and a part of me wouldn't blame her if she rejected me for having Pups with another female. It was something I thought I would do if I found out my Mate had Pups with another male, but now I know I would listen to her story first and then make up my mind. Over the years, there have been males and females that have asked me who the Mother of my Pups was, but I never told anyone the true story. All I ever told them was that their Mother was no longer alive, and that isn't far from the truth because to us, she is dead. Dalton and Thora know the truth, but they don't want anything to do with her, and Dad and I cannot blame them. After all, she ruined a lot of lives with the trick she pulled. As a result of Lynah's betrayal, Dad never went looking for another chosen Mate. My Pups and I just want him to be happy, but we do understand why he is reluctant to take another chosen Mate. "You should find Morgan and talk to her. Maybe she will be able to show you that your Mate will not reject you after you tell her your story. I think it is time you told someone about Lynah and what she did to you. The only reason others know the truth is because they were there. Maybe if you tell Morgan, she will be able to make you understand that you have closed yourself off, and she might be able to make you see that not every female is the same as Lynah or will reject you because of what Lynah did," Midnight says in my head. I know that I have kept females at arm's length. I wasn't willing to take a risk, and I had two Pups to think about. I still have my doubts, though, that I actually closed myself off as much as Midnight claims, and I think I would be able to smell our Mate when we meet her. I am not too sure how my Mate will react, and that is what frightens me the most. After discovering what Lynah did, I was mad at her for taking away my chance to start a family with my Mate. I kept going in circles for a long time, and I'm still not convinced that it will be easy to make my Mate understand that this happened out of my control. I am afraid that my Mate will make me choose between her and my Pups, and if she does, I already know what I will choose. Dalton and Thora will always come first to me. Midnight is right, though; I think it is time I told someone that wasn't there and who doesn't know anything about the situation. Morgan After I leave the main building, I head up to my own room. I need some time to myself, and I need to figure out what I can and cannot handle when it comes to Jaylen's past. What if Lynah was his chosen Mate and she betrayed him? What if Lynah was his chosen Mate and she died? Could I handle it if he had a chosen Mate before me? Could I handle knowing that he wasn't willing to wait for his fated Mate? Questions keep running through my mind, and I know I need someone to talk to. I link Skylar and ask her to come to my room. It doesn't take Skylar long to get to my room, and just one look at me shows her that whatever is going on in my head is serious. "Okay, Commander. What is running through your mind?" Skylar asks, and I gesture towards my bed for her to take a seat. I tell Skylar about the first time the gift of perception showed itself. I tell her what I saw that day and that it happened a few times after that day. I tell her about the thoughts I heard from Kaia and that apparently Lynah hurt Jaylen deeply. "I am not sure how or why she hurt him. All I know is that just mentioning that he has a past shows anger and pain in his eyes. I truly believe that Midnight knows that I am their Mate, but for some reason, Jaylen is unable to tell, and I think that Midnight is right. It has everything to do with his past. Jaylen has probably closed himself off to the point where he can no longer feel or smell his Mate, and I fear he may never be ready to tell anyone about his past. I doubt he has ever spoken about his past with anyone that wasn't related to him or who wasn't there when it happened. If he is unable to tell anyone what happened in his past, how will he be able to tell his fated Mate?" I confide in Skylar, and for a little while, we just sit there in my room in complete silence. "Would it matter to you if he had given up on finding his fated Mate? Jaylen is about two decades older than you are. What if he was just tired of waiting for his fated Mate?" Skylar asks me, and I tell her that if he had given up on finding his fated Mate, he didn't have to wait long. "He might be two decades older than I am, but if Flora was telling the truth, then Dalton is nearly fifteen years old, and that means that he gave up searching for his fated Mate after only five years. I mean, we can find our Mates from the day we turn eighteen, and if Dalton is close to fifteen years old, then Jaylen must have taken a chosen Mate within five years after turning eighteen.Why would anyone choose to take a chosen Mate so shortly after turning eighteen? So yes, I think it is safe to say that it would matter to me if Lynah was his chosen Mate," I answer Skylar's question. I think it would matter to any female.